Did you ever ride the tilt-a-whirl? I hate that ride. You sit in this round bench and you go around really fast in one direction. Then suddenly it jerks you in the opposite direction and you go around that way. You get super dizzy and feel like puking. Well, that is sort of what the last couple months have felt like to me.
Too much to do, too many things happening at once, tons of unresolved issues, and a sense of chaos most days. At the end of the day my brain hurts.
My reaction at times like this is to take control. Figure it out…problem solve. Get a grip. Well none of that was working. I needed a sense of peace, but I just felt burdened and anxious. I realized I longed to learn how to have a sense of peace IN the chaos. Not just once I get out of it. Because this chaos was lasting a while, and the burden was getting really heavy.
One day a couple of weeks ago I was reading in Exodus 14. Moses has just led Israel out of slavery. Whoo Hoo! They are high-tailing it out of Egypt. Pharoah’s army is behind them but they are losing the race. Then they hit the big Red Sea. YIKES. Chaos ensues. They are all screaming at Moses
Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again.
The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
I’ve been saying that every day, many times a day. I can release the panic, the burden. HE will fight for me, I need only to be still. I am part of His story, I can stand firm and watch Him work.
The chaos is still very real. But so is the peace. Unexplainable peace.
BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.
